I’m a believer in signs from God. I truly am because throughout my life, that’s one way God has confirmed or denied me of things I prayed for fervently. The Bible does declare that, “The fervent prayers of the righteous availeth much,” right? So it comes as no surprise when a cloud is in a certain shape, a license plate speaks to a situation, someone accidentally bumps into me and shares a a scripture that was necessary, etc. I am very vigilant to the ways and people of God and I try not to let anything go unnoticed, which explains this…….
On Wednesday, when I arrived to my classroom, I noticed a ladybug on my calendar. I immediately started beaming because I knew what ladybugs symbolized: luck (or in my case blessings because I don’t believe in luck per se), money, and love. Now, I can stand all the blessings a person can get so ladybug, bring them to me. Money, well, who wouldn’t want to add to their financial bliss and investments? Love, now that’s the one that gets me. I am newly divorced and I have been struggling with all the emotions of what I used to call a “failed marriage” but now I see it as an experience and a lesson. So love isn’t my forte right now or at least in the secular sense. However, there has been this new blossom of love in my life – Christ. I am working on renewing my life through Christ and living solely for Him so was that confirmation that I am on the right path?
Or did you forget that my next book is about a ladybug? Yes, a precious ladybug named Lillith. I believe Lillith came to visit me to remind me that the little things in life often go unnoticed, but if you pay attention you just might catch a glimpse of magic in the making. I was so excited to see the ladybug that I told everyone at work about her and the next day when I arrived at work, Lillith was still there. It was ethereal at that point, and I just sat for minutes and marveled at speckled body.
“Why are you still here?” I asked as I placed her tiny body on the palm of my hand and watched in amazement as she traveled the lines of my palm as if she were enroute to some destination.
Lillith flapped her wings in response and continued to circumnavigate. I placed her back on my desk and I proceeded to prepare for my students. About two hours later, I began to look for Lillith but she was nowhere to be seen, so I counted my joy for her brief presence and took my students to the library. After they began their assignment, I stole away to the restroom to lament on Lillith’s leaving. I stood in silence while leaning against the wall and eventually walked to the mirror and looked at my face. I fixed out of place hairs, reapplied lipstick, and turned to view my hair for a side view when I noticed a minuscule orange dot on my sweater. Guess who it was? Yes, it was Lillith. She had been on my back the entire time. I was ecstatic.
“Come here, you!” I exclaimed as I peeled her orange, spotted body from my garment.
“I was looking for you, Little Miss Sunshine. I thought I’d lost you FOREVER!” I whispered to her as I placed her in my palm.
At that moment, I realized what happened. Lilith was a sign from God and was all those things – an increase in blessings, love, and money. That’s what writing does to me: I LOVE to write; I make MONEY from writing; I BLESS others through my writing and in turn I bless myself. She also meant renew – as in my relationship with Christ. Her wings meant “release” – to let Go and Let God. Lillith being on my back was God’s way of testing my vigilance. Will MiMi recognize the little things in life? The little things lead to bigger things and God will always be with me even when I do not see His presence, which goes back to my first book – “How Big is Your Faith?” Lillith had fulfilled her purpose as a sign sent from God.
Hesitantly, I carried Lillith back to the classroom and placed her on my desk and I made no attempt to say good-bye at the day’s end because it hurt knowing I would not see this tiny speck of perfection again. I just felt in my spirit I wouldn’t see her again. She’d fulfilled her mission and as I left the classroom, I smiled and said, “Thank you, little friend. Farewell.” I closed the door gently and walked away.
The next day, I admit to looking for Lillith, but she was not there. She was nowhere in sight – just as God is, and I was reminded that just because we don’t see God, doesn’t mean He’s not there, but always stay vigilant to other ways to hear and see Him.