Besides Charlotte’s Web there is another book that resonates with me, Leisha Joseph’s Little Girl Lost. I read the book while I was a junior in high school (1999) and it touched the very core of my heart because at the time I was what I called a “baby Christian.” I was still “wet behind the ears” so to speak in regards to having a relationship with Christ.
Leisha’s story engulfed me and I could not stop reading. Maybe because in some ways I saw myself in her lifestory. At a young age, Leisha lost her father and her best friend was her brother, Patch. Leisha’s mother was mentally disillusioned and a drug addict which forced Leisha to rely on herself and seek haven in Patch’s arms. What happens later will alarm every reader. I won’t spill it all because I want you to read the story but Leisha’s story will bring you closer to God and humanity.
Synopsis: Her mother’s boyfriends find their way to Leisha’s bed when she is a child, so the stain of self-violation is imprinted. As an adult, Leisha is brutally attacked in a parking lot by a serial rapist and you will not believe what happens as he puts a gun to Leisha’s head and pulls the trigger more than once. He rapes her and is imprisoned. While there, the rapist threatens to attack Leisha again when he is released. He follows up on his threat and he does and this time the unimaginable happens. You will be astonished, your heart will drop, but then you will breathe and it shall beat again.
Though I was never raped (as a child nor adult) nor sexually assaulted, I feel I was raped of an enjoyable, normal childhood. I took my daughter to the park yesterday with a friend and I watched as my daughter roamed, played, and frolicked about and I realize that I broke the curse of name calling, beatings, burns, kicks, and slaps that occurred in my childhood. I could never imagine subjecting my daughter to the life I lived as a child. If anything, I feel it is my earthly duty to protect God’s angel – my child. Why can’t some mothers see their children in this light? I think in order to love your child as they should be, you should love your child more than you love yourself. That may sound strange, but it is true. It is this selfless love that would fling herself in front of a car, correct a stranger who doesn’t understand the frailties of childhood, confront teachers who call your child, “STUPID,” or other high strung hangers.
I no longer ask God why I had to endure such cruelty at the hands of someone who was supposed to love me and not hurt me. I consider how I have grown in Him and I deal with my past but embrace my future. God’s plan for my life is unfolding before me and I can be a voice for the silenced. Over 65% of people have been abused in some form throughout their lives, sadly. Oftentimes in life we think that God has forsaken us, but he has a plan for us all. Sometimes we look at the lives of those around us and desire to have their possessions, lives, careers, marriages, etc. but their plan is not our plan. Above all else, God’s plan is even better but in we must have a relationship with God to understand this and for those who don’t, it’s obvious.
Leisha’s faith moved me and it made me realize as a teenager that the heartache, abuse, and pain that I endured as a child was not that God had neglected me; he was preparing me for my future in Him. I highly recommend Little Girl Lost to the broken, healed, doubting, faithless souls of the world. After reading Leisha’s book, you will no longer be lost, you shall be found. You’ll discover more about yourself through the eyes of someone else and that alone is AMAZING.
I can’t remember who gave me Little Girl Lost when I was 17 but I am so thankful because it changed my life and awakened my inner-being. If you were a victim of abuse and you are reading this, I leave you this message: We’re not victims anymore thanks to the power of mercy and forgiveness; we are survivors. Forgiveness is for you and not the other person. God can heal.